Does it feel like the world that we are living in is insane? Insane isn’t exactly a nice description, but over and over again today that is what went through my mind. I feel like everywhere I go or everyone I talk to is usually just on the verge of melting down.
Earlier this week I went to the grocery store, and was shocked to see the shelves looking very empty again. I’ll admit I’m an order my groceries kind of gal, so being in a store is unusual. However my parents told me that they were in Walmart, and they were surprised how empty the shelves were. So Adam and I decided we should probably make a Costco run “just in case.” I think I have Costco anxiety. The store opens and there are all the little ants charging the paper goods and cleaning supplies, but at the same time with masks at their neck or taking their masks off to talk. Crushing together with zero thought to any social distancing. I thought why on earth are you all so worried about running out of cleaning supplies if you are so indifferent to the things that would actually keep you healthy? Of course there were no Clorox wipes.
Today Adam and I decided it was time to go price kitchen cabinets. Again, the insanity of the times creeped in. That Cabinet store is tiny, no way to keep a safe distance. This person has the workshop on their property, nope don’t feel comfortable going on someone’s property. These cabinets come in those colors, go ahead and grab the paint swatches. As I’m looking through them all I can think is “how many people have touched this color swatch?” I know, I’m the crazy one. Then we were out together and all I wanted to do is go out to eat with my husband. We haven’t done that since early March. We even made it to driving up to a place that we knew had outdoor dining, and that was as close as we came. Too many people, tables too close, neither one of use comfortable. We ended up at Sonic. Not the same but the only covid date day compromise we could find.
Then later this afternoon I called a relative just to check in. Not to talk about Covid, or wearing masks, or talking politics. My how are you turned in to CNN, some guy who wrote a book about Trump, and Covid numbers are lies. Nooooo! I don’t want to talk about those things. I don’t want to argue with family about politics, I don’t want to explain for the 10,000 time this year why I support masks, and I definitely don’t want to hear one more person try and tell me that COVID is a hoax. Can’t we just talk about the weather?! Why do people gravitate towards like minded people? Because everyone else wants to argue with you. Let’s go back to the good ole days when we talked about boring stuff like what we had for dinner, and yes I tried to change the subject to my new Hello Fresh obsession but they weren’t interested. Are there people you avoid calling because you just don’t have the energy for it?
10 more days. 10 more days until the election is over. Whoever wins let them win BIG. Let them with SO BIG that the other guy can’t scream conspiracy, or fraud, or any other ridiculous I won’t accept this result excuse. That way at least half the insanity will go away. I hope you don’t have COVID where you live. I hope if you do that you stay healthy. If you think that COVID is fake I hope you can live blissfully ignorant and no one you know gets as much as a cold this year. I hope your right and it magically goes away after the election. I don’t think it will, but I’m willing to accept blissful ignorance for a little less insanity.